Yup

It's the holiday season for sure. I'm gonna break something.

Sad, but is ok.

Was gonna go see Michael Jackson's "This Is It" movie tonight, but it looks like the snow is gonna fly too hard. Even my weatherbug says so!

Morning!

It snowed last night. I am so not ready for snow. It makes my neck hurt, it gets all slushy in my shoes, my toes NEVER feel warm, I would live in a bathtub, except that I would become a prune. Oh ya, and I get frickin depressed. Not enough full spectrum light, or something. Bleh. But the visible light? Oh there is so much more of that! Snow reflects it, so it gets in under my sunglasses. Ouch.

On the bright side.

I love snowmen, snow angels, getting stupid with snowball fights and collapsing laughing inside exchanging wet, soppy clothes for warm dry socks and sweat pants topped off with a soft, warm winter blanket and a hot cup of cocoa. On second thought, C'MON SNOW! GIVE ME YOUR WORST. :D I look forward to besting you, haha!

Update?

I am only on for a second, trying to help Tyra study for her finals for this semester. Man, I will be so happy for winter break!

Today

I just can't seem to keep up with everything! I need more money, but either my body breaks down too fast, or I get a good job that I can do and I am never ever home! I don't want to miss my life because I was in a cubicle the better part of it, I want to be free. I want to love my job, and have a job that my family can join me. I want us to get the Tattooing and Design and ALL of those things we keep talking about! C'mon, lets bite the damn bullet and for god's sake just do it! No more dodging out because I just don't feel like it. When a person says hey Tat me, let's jump on it! Get a good name going, get a life started! I am so sick of me always having all these brainy ideas and not using them. F*ck it. Here goes.

Scattered

Can't seem to do anything right, just keep dropping things! Lol. Not sure what is ging on, just a weird vibe today. Feel like I am beside myself. Hell, I can't even drive the Duece right on Brutal Legend, and I rock with the Druid Plow! Well, really really got to go try to keep everything else updated too!

Jesus

Ok, so why is it that people always put themselves onto others? If one is lying, they assume everyone is lying to them. If one is hiding, they assume everyone else is hiding something. Do these people not understand how much it hurts the people that love them when they do that?

Whatever. Someday, maybe. Maybe someday they will understand that just saying you trust someone means nothing until you begin to act like you trust them.

Please, if anyone I know has seen me do this, as kindly as possible please let me know?

Other note!! Saw the new transformer movie, I liked it!

The New Kitchen Table

This is a slightly truncated version, but what is copied is verbatim. For the whole thing, (you are not missing much, just some time sensitive comments) go look it up on my MySpace.

It seems that the world has been run amuck with myspace and youtube and other such sharing sites. These sites have become the new kitchen table.

I remember the kitchen table being the place that the adults sat at to wash away the worries of the day. Laughter and conversation would roll on over cups of coffee until wee hours of the mornings, until one by one everyone went home, went to bed, or otherwise turned in. I can remember the slow transition, from child who played while the adults talked, to adult who sat and talked while the children played. One day there was a word, a sentence, that caught my ear. I would wander in for a moment, chat and explore the conversation for a bit, until it turned away from subjects that could hold my interest. But slowly, I stayed longer. Slowly I stopped standing by the table, and started sitting at it. One day, I had a cup of coffee to keep my place. And today, when I visit, there it is. A different table, sometimes even a different room. But still, a cup of coffee and good company. But how often do we visit each other anymore? Hardly never. The memories of those nights begin to gather dust, but still the need, the want for that company persists. Sometimes it is a CD, specially burned to remember those times. Maybe it is an e-mail. Maybe, it is a website, a place that you can go inside of your own busy schedule where you can, for that second, sit at that table. Because all these websites are so personal. We put out pieces of ourselves not for the masses, as we may think somedays, but for ourselves. Because we know that if we give that little bit, someone else will respond in kind and let us have that moment. That memory. That time to just be together in this busy messed up world.

Welcome to the new kitchen table. There is a fresh cup of coffee waiting for you.

Freak Out Etc

Ok, so I thought I was having trouble with my bank for a second, but apparently all is well. Something came through earlier than I expected, so my minor heart attack was for nothing. Thank god. I am now off to create a fabled FaceBook account, and perhaps the (NOT) elusive Twitter creature. Let's see how that goes, eh? Pretty soon everything is gonna be online! Oooo, that reminds me... I did a really good Myspace Post a while ago about that, I think it deserves another posting.

Well Then

Ok, so I have not blogged in a while, it is gonna take some getting used to again. I hopped on for just a second, need to take care of some bank business, lol. Tyra is probably wondering where I went to, she usually does. I am feeling odd today, some mix between very productive and very irritated. Hmm. Well. Maybe it is just fall creeping up on us. I love Halloween so, I just wish it didn't mean winter is coming. Especially with my neck in the cold. Bleh.